Have you ever had one of those nights where you were so tierd, and yet for the life of you could not fall asleep? Well…i am experiencing just that. My body is so worn out, and yet my mind is racing and my brain has turned off the sleep mode switch.

I am laying in my comfortable bed, listening to the rain and yet my eyes just won’t seem to shut. You would think that laying in a comfortable queen size bed all to yourself, whilst listening to the rain, in a comfortable climate in your room worn out from the big day you just had, would surely make your body wind down and say ” hey! Kira its time to go to sleep.” But no, still wide awake.  I think i am….well i know i am missing something next to me, but hey not having something next to me in bed at night has never stopped me from falling asleep before! Maybe its the fact that in the past month i have gotton used to seeing him every night, and laying next to him while watching a movie, and unintentionally falling asleep in his arms because i felt so safe and warm. Maybe its because last week we both fell asleep on the couch together and my family ( as crazy as they are) took pictures, just to show us how cute we are together. Or maybe its the fact that i know that at the end of six months if everything goes as planned, he will be beside me holding me while i sleep.

For now, my 10 pillows, and Big Pink Bunny will have to be a good substitute until He fills their spot. So once again, i will close my eyes and cuddle closely to my furry friend. Maybe, just maybe tonight i can float off to dreamland.